Be your own happy place !!

Everyone deserves a place where they could burst out what they are going through, a place where they could share everything without getting judged, a place where they find peace and reason to smile amongst all the trouble that they go through, a place from where they would get all that care, love, value or understanding which they never got from anyone but what if you actually have no one no place or what if that place too with time will start getting at the urge of extinction and by the time will eventually vanish like every other did. These questions and the desperation to make that place permanent or to never lose someone how long will we cling on things that are gone. how long will it take for us to accept the fact that they along with that place doesn't exist anymore or may be they are there but things have changed and it is us who are standing there hoping for different endings. 

To avoid thinking about these things or to answer these question to ourselves what we all do is fool ourselves and pretend as if nothing has happened so as to avoid or run away from situations or the truth. But now it's time, time for you to realize that they ain't coming back or if they are the part of them which is gone is never coming back and this is what they are now, a new version of them who doesn't even recognize the bond which you once had. Memories are the best and the worst part of someone's life, when you are in some life's dilemma they give you the reason to smile, to be happy, it gives you a hope that things can be fine which makes it the reason why anyone would hold on to them but the worst part is that sometimes they become the reason why you do not move on with your life or why you be with someone who has been changed completely whom you fail to accept but since all of those moments that you have spent together, you never let them go. Sometimes we know we want to save our friendship or any other relationship and for that we keep trying even though we know deep inside that everything has changed but in situations like this it's not worth it as the other one doesn't understand what has actually been wrong or why now everything has changed, for them it's as if nothing ever mattered.

Then may be it's time, time to stop expecting from people to give what you can not even give to yourself. After understanding and realizing what the other one has done to you if  you still can not take your stand and value yourself by letting them go then how are others supposed to value you. Our lives are like books and all of these memories and people whom we lost in the way should be treated as the best chapters of your book which you can neither re-live nor forget. Life is unpredictable you never know what happens next so instead of crying on what you never got, start giving yourself what you deserve rather then expecting it from others by making yourself your happy place and make yourself a soul which others would crave, someone for whom they will make efforts so as to make you a part of their lives instead of you running after them. So start living in truth whatever is gone it may be the best part of your life but is still gone so accept it and since you can't imagine what life would be without it stop settling for whatever is offered to you if that has changed or left you then it was never something which you would have wanted for you, it was a just a beautiful chapter which now needs a closure.....

- Ekta