changing self to change the world....

I know life is not easy but why do people come and go according to their wish in your life, at some point they make you feel that they cant live without you whereas on the other they will forget that you even exist. 

The main problem with people like us is that we trust people easily, we look only to the bright and good side of the person and then this is accompanied by us living in the lie which that person once said to us which made us feel that we are important to them. we start giving our best to make them happy, to build a bond which will be completely based on the trust, support and love which we craved in our entire lives. The only mistake which we make is that we start thinking that this is the one with whom the empty whole which we have carried throughout our lives will be replaced , we feel that our life is complete with them, each moment spent with them makes us feel that there is so much about life and believing on all of this we start living our lives hoping that the pain which we carried throughout our lives is gone.

 But then there comes a time when the other one starts making mistakes they start treating you according to their needs, they talk to you when they want, they be with you when they need you forgetting about how you are gonna feel with the change they are bringing into the purest bond that you had, into the only reason which helped you live a little better, into the only thing which you wanted to be constant and this is the point where another weakness of people like us comes into picture,  we start keeping aside our everything since we never want that feeling to slip away since we are not ready to be alone to feel the pain that we had gone through this entire time so we keep on forgiving the other one thinking that one day they will realize what actually they are doing to us and when this whole time you keep forgiving them just to be with them, they start feeling that you won't leave them no matter how bad they treat you, you ain't going anywhere. 

They still keep ignoring the fact that we too have feelings, we too can get hurt and they try to make excuses to escape from the blame of hurting us, they use our weaknesses so that everything every problem could be blamed on us, making everything sound as it is we who are hurting them. They do not realize that our habit of letting things go just to be with them has its limits too, we too at some point will feel that whatever we are doing is not worth it. 

And then there comes a day when we want to get rid of the way they are making us feel, the way they have prioritized everything above us and that day we decide to take a stand for ourselves and that day we end this never ending pain, although that emptiness will always be there but we know that just because we want to be with someone it doesn't mean we keep on lowering our standards and forget what we actually deserve. Although still broken but we know that we did our best and it's not us who are at fault it is them who didn't realize what they have lost.

-Ekta